I’ve been incarcerated 11years….and I’m nearing the definitiveness of this experiment! When I first became incarcerated I didn’t think I’d ever see the light of day again! The day I got sentenced to 14years in prison….I thought I was in some sort of alternate reality…of which I had absolutely No control over! When I arrived back to my cell I cried…..I simply couldn’t see mySelf being imprisoned for 14years of My Life! I’m not sure that I ever accepted it…..I assume I eventually did. It may have been when I began Real introspection of mySelf and finally discovered that most of, if Not, all of my problems in Life were created by my own bad decisions! I was able to take responsibility for stupid decisions… that resulted in trauma to mySelf! It was me the Entire time! Some things we are forced to embrace…. others we are allowed!
My entire outlook at this point is one of optimism!, with bits and pieces of aloofness…..as I can’t believe this experiment is Almost over! I find that I’m smiling to mySelf and laughing to mySelf….things I couldn’t do years ago I’m Now allowed to do again! I feel stripped sometimes……being released back to ”freedom” is supposed to be easy, but….as I get closer and closer to my release, I’m seeing that it’s not that easy!
As a Human Being, I’m not sure if I’ve gained more or lost more…..
I’m just a Plain and Simple person….that is All I Am
