Sitting around waiting for inspection… that’s the highlight of my day, FML! But it’s times like these that will make me appreciate freedom all the more when I get out.
I’ve been doing this for over 5 years now but the end is almost in sight, 3 more years and I’ll be at the house. I’m glad the time has went by fast and I’m proud of the progress I’ve made on myself. I known these next 3 years will only make me stronger, give me the time to continue working on myself and refine the plans I have for when I get out. But at this point I can’t help but feel that I’ve learned the lessons I’ve needed to learn and that I’ve changed the things that needed to be changed. It gets to the point where I feel that this is wasted time. But I’ll continue as in have the last few years, I won’t let this get to me, and I’ll make myself the best that I can be.
On a brighter note, this Saturday will be the first time I’ve seen my son since covid! The prison has finally started allowing kids to come back for visitation, so I’m looking forward to getting that connection back with my son.
So here’s some of the music that I’ve really connected with over that last month: “Anxiety” by Coi Leray, “Scare Myself” and “I Wanna Die” by Nessa Barrett, “Sacrifice” by the weekend, and “Bella Ciao” by Becky G.
Also, I ran across this quote this morning and well it just fits with everything else in my life right about now “I tell you: one must still have chaos in one, to give birth to a star. I tell you: ye have still chaos in you” -Nietzsche
